Hello my beautiful internet friends! I hope you have been having a wonderful week and that you are anxiety free on this Monday.
As you know, I have decided to head back to counseling to polish up my coping methods and hopefully find a new way to rid myself of emetophobia. If you want to hear about my first session, you can click here. I had my second session this past Friday and we have not yet started the EMDR, but did discuss it more in depth. This being said, I do feel like I need to at least clarify some of the statements from my EMDR post and explain it a little better.
After talking with the counselor about a few other things she did not get to ask about last time (history of abuse, drug and alcohol use, more information about my phobia such as specific moments that were especially distressing, and other fun facts about me), we began talking about EMDR. She asked me if I was familiar, and I said well I did some research and I felt it was all a little vague. One I finished explaining it to her, she said well that’s sort of right.
So now I have a professional definition for you. EMDR is basically taking distressing thoughts, which can be big or small, and learning to reprocess them. In my post, I had mentioned something about replacing those bad thoughts with good ones, but that is actually not correct. Turns out if you try to mesh up a bad thought with a good thought, it’ll just engulf the good thought and completely derail the process.
This means that for emetophobia, an EMDR session would go something like this. We would address a feeling I have about the phobia – which could be lack of control, I could get hurt, being trapped – and then find a moment in my past that I felt that way. From there, we would talk through that scenario and basically reprocess the emotions, feelings and thoughts that are negative with that memory. We’d start small and work our way up to larger, scarier instances. From what I understand, this treatment should basically eradicate the anxiety I have about emetophobia and I’m very excited about that.
One of the last questions she asked me at the end of this session was how I felt about the possibility of losing emetophobia, seeing as though this phobia has become something of an identity for me. And I explained to her that about 6 months in to my counseling I had an identity crisis (you can read about that here) and that I am more than ready to be rid of the anxiety and panic I have around throwing up. I’m tired of being Chelsie with Emetophobia. I want to be just Chelsie.
Next time I go to see my counselor we will start with CBT and EMDR. I’m very excited to share these experiences with all of you. I know sometimes it’s nice to see how things that sound like scientific mumbo jumbo come to life and actually have a use. I see my counselor on Fridays, so expect something to post by the end of the weekend or the first of the following week.
Until next time, Internet!
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