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EMDR Reflection and An Upcoming Q&A

Before I get into the meat of this blog post I wanted to make sure I made a quick announcement! I am going to be doing a Q&A about all things Emetophobia, anxiety, panic, counseling, me and other things in my next blog post. 

Writing a blog post for every EMDR session was becoming a chore. I was going once to twice a week to do processing, and honestly trying to keep up with that was tough. Not only because of the frequency, but because most of the times by the time I was ready to talk about it, the moment had passed and the information I could have used to educate with was gone. That being said, though, I am ready to briefly update you on EMDR status and what I’ve learned about it since I started writing about the sessions to begin with.

(You can read about my previous EMDR sessions by clicking the following links: What in the world is EMDR?, Counseling Session Two: Thoughts & Reflections, Counseling Sessions 3 & 4 and other random thoughts, I See EMDR Working (Counseling Session 5) & A Lindsey Stirling Concert)

When I started EMDR I wasn’t sure what to expect, and I spent several sessions wondering if it was actually working. It’s sometimes hard to see if things are going the way it should be in the moment. However, after a couple of sessions I started to see the effects. Things that usually sent me in to a tizzy weren’t bothering me anymore. I was handling day to day stress better and I felt more optimistic.

That being said, not every session was simple. EMDR is a process that helps you reach into your mind and pull things out that you either had been blocking out or that you hadn’t remembered in years. You are focusing on these negative events that cause you panic and anxiety, and in turn you will most likely end up bringing up something that causes you to feel anxious, sad, depressed or angry.

Since I started, I’ve only had two sessions that really just worked me up, both of which I don’t feel comfortable sharing here. They weren’t even directly related to the phobia (all personal, past events), and they aren’t life shattering, but when you put yourself in a really vulnerable state you are bound to conjure up the emotions you felt – or at least something similar.

This last session I did is a great example of an emotionally difficult day. Two sessions had gone by since I processed anything and actually made headway, and it probably didn’t help we were focusing on my anxieties towards flying versus my actual phobia. I’ll have to write about that next, it was an experience.

The best way to describe this session is we started at point A, and by the time I got done I was hanging out in Wonderland with Alice and the White Rabbit – except it was more like an American McGee’s version and I was like how the hell did I get here? I had actually forgotten where we started, and my mind was consumed with past events and the little details I had conveniently forgotten… and for good reason.

My counselor sent me home with play-doh (to help channel the nervous energy) and some anxiety coping techniques, but 24 hours later my mind was still reeling. It hadn’t shut off, it hadn’t stopped thinking, processing, questioning… It’s exhausting.

But, on that same note, I see it working. I really do. This form of therapy is so useful to me because it not only allows me to work through the anxieties, but it allows me to work through them in the one way I know how – talking it out. The processing part is done silently, but after each processing there is some time to talk out what came up and what or how it’s connected.

So, what does all this nonsense mean? Basically, EMDR is tough. It’s mentally and emotionally draining, but it’s worth it. Every second of it. I’ve made huge strides using this method of counseling, whereas with CBT I had hit a plateau and wasn’t making anymore forward progress. 10/10, 5 Stars, Highly Recommend.

Now on to the minor housekeeping. I do plan on blogging more now that we have hit fall. There is more than the cold weather approaching that has us emets shaking in our boots, and I’m excited to walk through that will all of you.

And as always, make sure you check out our Emetophobia Support Group on Facebook. It’s a closed, private group meaning everything you post won’t show up on your newsfeed, and only those who ask to get in will be allowed in. We promote a positive atmosphere, full of support – and it doesn’t matter if you are just finding the name for your fear, always known or have conquered it, we’d love to have you come join our group.

Until next time, internet!

If you would like to email me, you can send any questions, concerns, comments or suggestions to contact@hashtagfearless.com. I will do my best to respond to you within 48 hours, but if for some reason I cannot get back to you in that time frame, I promise I will always respond as soon as possible. You can also find me on  FacebookTwitterPinterest and Instagram

Lastly, I run an Emetophobia Support Group on Facebook. Emetophobia is the intense and irrational fear of throwing up, and it is one struggle I am passionately engaged in. The group is a closed, by request only group to help facilitate sharing and support by all members. It is also private, meaning that the posts you and others make will not show up publicly in your newsfeed.

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