I’m going to let you in on a little secret: I’m writing this post in November of 2018. I know it seems insane to write an article laying out my hopes and dreams for 2019 in 2018, but you know what? It’s my story and I can do as a please.
Too sassy? I’ll try to tone it down.
When I got into 2018 I swore it was going to my year. I had this feeling that 2018 was going to be a good one, and even though, at the time of writing this, I have about 2 months before the end, I can safely to say I wasn’t totally wrong.
For starters, I’ve been injured, literally, for almost every month except one. I had a broken foot from December 2017 until February of 2018, rebroke it at the end of February 2018, and it didn’t heal and recover until June 2018. Then, in July 2018 I fell on my thumb and hurt it. At the time of writing, I’m still in a splint, the doctors don’t know what’s wrong, and I’m waiting for an MRI.
That’s probably the worst of my year, if I’m being honest. It’s been tough being injured and limited for so long. It’s been hard on my mental health, and for a while it really impacted my social life too. I wasn’t able to go out, explore, and fully experience my summer.
However, despite the injuries, I’ve had a pretty amazing time otherwise. I got to speak, for the first time ever, at my local Pride festival and at a National Coming Out Day. I was asked to be on the committee for Pride, and I met a ton of amazing new friends because of it. I’ve gone to political rallies, voted, marched for gun reform, and helped at STI testing events. I got to see Pentatonix in concert for the second time, I got a second dog, bought a house, did reno’s to that house, and lost a furbaby (which, ultimately was not a good thing, but it helped me to cherish the time I had with the people and pets in my life).
I’ve done a lot of self discovery this year, and I’ve taken the time to self reflect on many aspects of my life that I otherwise pushed aside (specifically #Fearless). Most predominantly, I’ve been exploring a possible ADD diagnosis, which would honestly explain 90% of my struggles in life. It’s opened the doors for me to explore what I always thought was inherently uncontrollable, and allowed me to take strides to cope in more productive ways.
As far as my photography business goes, I’ve gotten to do many exciting and fun shoots, as well as many photography based charity events. I’ve grown my business little by little, and I’m gearing up for my best year yet in 2019 for photography. My goal is to start focusing on weddings and boudoir, and I’m already working hard to make sure that happens. I want my photography business to be something that is sustainable, and I feel like I’m so close; I’m just hoping that 2019 is my year to do that.
So I guess this is a good transition for what I hope for in 2019.
I’m excited about the prospect of doing more; in all aspects of my life. More with my friends, more with my husband, more for my community, more for myself, and more with this site. I’m excited to explore more of the great state of Idaho, and journey out to new areas like Utah, Oregon, Washington, and California. I’m hoping that in 2019, I will continue to discover more about myself, and push beyond the limits I thought I knew.
I don’t know what 2019 will bring me quite yet, but what I do know is that from where I’m sitting in 2018, I’m hopeful.
Until next time, Internet.
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